confession of nimo

2009-09-29T02:15:00.000-07:00

What's happening to me?

Boredom strucks me.

As time goes by, i could feel i'm dying with life.

'Enjoy' defines nothing at all.

Zero!

I slapped hard on my right cheek and then to my left.

It hurts.

The pain goes through the veins and to the heart.

I'm sick and tired of going through all this.

I might smile, i might laugh - u might see those, but they're fake.

One word to describe my life again - BOREDOM.

Full of boredness.

Boring. N truthfully from the bottom of my bored heart...i'm telling you...

I'M BORED!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2009-09-24T04:29:00.000-07:00

Salam..

Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends! :)

Its only the 5th day of Hari Raya, n i see Dd like...'beraya sakan!!!!' Hahaha.. Me? Went out only on the first day. Visited my 'setahun-sekali-je-jumpe' aunties n uncles..n its all so funny. Esp my Mak Long... "Anim takde salah eh ngn mak long, jumpe setahun sekali je..takya mintak maaf eh, salam cium tgn je k?" N mak long said.. "Hah! Yelah.. kau duduk kat kerusi sana, meh mak long je yg mintak maaf ngn kau..." Hehehe...

Kiut lah mak long!

But the stressful part...every house i went to mesti tanya soalan nie... "Bile nak kawin nim? Kak nana next yr bln 10,nak kawin. Abg Shafie nak tunang bulan 1." Haiz... Bikin kpala gue pusing! Blm sampai seru psl bab2 jodoh ni, ape leh buat kan... Berserah aje lah!

Anyway, Yan's bday is coming. Taktau lah nak make it special tak. Tapi...entahlah. I've already forgave what he said de other time. Maklumlah... 2nd day raya, dia mintak maaf ngn aku.. but.. he said.. "Yan mintak maaf maaf eh tapi nanti yan buat lagi." Hmmphh!!

Oh yah, this Sat ade jemputan kat rumah cik yati.. Mesti ramai giler ni pelajar2 madr aljunied. Nak kene tempuh gerun yg pertama. Den...rumah nurinah ade open hs.. Nak kene tempuh dan rempuh gerun yg kedua pulak. Ish! U noe, i noe, public duno.. Hee...

K lah, tgk nanti amcm Sat nie.. Will update again.. Toodles!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2009-09-08T01:03:00.000-07:00

Salam!

Ooh my..... Been so loooong since i last updated. N i mean LOOONNNGGG,ok?! Haha.. I kinda forgot abt my all this bloggy stuff eversince...emm...eversince....emm...i really can't remember tho'! Hahah..

Currently not working, as i had migraine. N maybe this migraine made me remember bout' my blog. Hee..!

N yah...Hari Raya is just next wk. Gosh! N im like doing nothing. I don't know if i should buy a new baju kurung, coz for i wat think, i might be going out on the 1st day of Raya with family n 2nd wk, with friends. N i've got lots of baju kurung.. Haha.. *Badan empunya ada 1..tapi baju belambak..pakai pulak time jemputan n raya.. ;p tsk tsk... Kan Upin n Ipin dah ajar berjimat! "Betul tuh! Betul betul betul.." *

Anyway, at my working plc, there's a new team leader in my team. Well, not so new, been a mth already.. Haha.. N he's like, so hardworking ok. N there's so much things that me n de whole team need to do. Well, maybe its time for us to buck up...

:)))

Ok lah, i'll update again,soon. I hope. Hehee....

Toodles!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2009-03-21T19:17:00.000-07:00

Harlow!

Its been like 3mths since i last blogged. Damn.. So much work..been so busy with life. Problems just keep on popping up. At home, at work, my personal life.. Too much too handle.

BIG mess!

I just don't understand myself. Why do i get influenced so easily? Do i really care for their feelings? Do i really love them...or is it just because of sympathy? A thousand and one 'why's and do's'; in my mind.

I'm already 22, but i still don't know i really want in life.

Somebody....
Save me...
=(

'cinta-kenapa-aku'

2008-12-11T01:24:00.000-08:00

Im counting down the number of hours left to....................... ehem!

Bad news n good news.

Well, it was abit cocked up just now. Went to send the cake to The Straits Kitchen (Hyatt Hotel) but they say tonight's fully booked. N im in the waiting list! Waddeheck! I enquired abt it 3 wks ago, n she told me i don't have to reserve coz normally wkdays is not packed. Hrmmmphh!! Then i had to ask the opposite hotel (Royal Plaza) @ Carousel. Theirs has vacant...BUT... No outside food allowed, which means... THE CAKE CANT BE BROUGHT IN. Only cakes purchased in their hotel can be consumed. *Mcm siak kan?!* I was abit upset though. But i still tawakkal aje n booked both restaurants. Both regulations states that reservation not taken within 15 minutes will be cancelled. *Lagi mcm siak!* I don't know whether friend can make it on time...coz friend's working. *Sigh*

Just after i reached back to school, soemone called n said that my seats is confirmed n not in the waiting list anymore HOWEVER i have to reach by 7.30pm, or else by 7.45pm, it'll be taken up by others. *Siak...siak...siak!*

Oh boy.... I pray hard everything will go smoothly. Coz it's gonna be friend's very first bday celebration in friend's life, ever! Hahakx! *Kesian...*

Anyway, Happy 'ehem-ehem' Birthday to u Friend! May Allah bless u n help u to get thru ur tough journey in life. Whatever it is u still have ur bestfriend (Tonggek... oops! Hahaha...) n me, of course! <-- perasan nyer!

Wokay then, will update again...soon...abt the whole event...(if i aint lazy lah.... *winks*)

Toodles~!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-12-04T01:13:00.000-08:00

Salam.

After 7 hrs of sitting in class learning mandarin, (which is just for today) got my head abit of a headache. It happened so fast. Its already de 4th wk of lesson. 2 more to go. Woohoo! But don't assume i can really conversed in mandarin. Heee..

Oh well, today marked my very first time wearing a pair of Lee(jeans) which costs $109. I got nervous, n i actually felt so 'sayang' wearing it. Hahaha.. Gosh, i've never bought myself a pair of ORIGINAL jeans. All that i've ever bought, i swear, is 'ciplak'! Haha.. N for goodness sake, im getting fatter! Had to wear a bigger size after maintaining my size from 17 yrs old(Sec. 5) till im 20 yrs old. Now is already a different size. Hmmphh!

Geee... Pay is next week. Plus de bonus! Wah! Cant wait for it.. No matter what, savings comes first. N most prob, i'd be going Sentosa with de 2 gorgeous guys. *kwang kwang kwang* *winks*

Wokay then, gtg. Zai jian.. (Bye)

Hehehe!

Oh yar, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all Muslims! :)

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-11-26T20:39:00.000-08:00

Salam Alaik.

Been awhile since i last update. Ups n downs, highs n lows. Alhamdulillah,im still able to take it.

Well, just a few updates abt what happened recently. Last 2 weeks ago, i went for my company's family day held at Singpore Zoo. N...just my luck to have won 4th prize in the lucky draw, *Won a dvd player* :)))

N just 2 days ago, received a letter from HSBC, n i won myself a $500 TANGS shopping voucher! Cool right?! Once again... Alhamdulillah. *Tuhan tu maha Adil* Disebalik kesedihan dan kedukaan, terselit kebahagiaan utk ku.. Amin. :))

Maybe my destiny in love isn't that great. But, im still strong enough. Oh well, im still young ok. There's lots to pursue. No worries Hanim. :)

N yerps, i miss my mum soooo much! Have not seen her for the past 1 wk! *Sigh* Most prob, i'd be going back 'home'. Dgr2 sedare dr kampung (Penang) nak dtg. Can't wait to meet them!

Oklah, someone's bday is coming up. Aku tgh perah otak nak fikirkan what's de best thing to be given as surprise. Hmmm... *Perah nim, jgn tak perah!* Hehehe...

'Cinta-kenapa-aku'

2008-10-30T06:05:00.000-07:00

Salam..

Life has been great de past few days. I can run around the interchange 'layan-ning' Wawan! *Shame on me* Hee.. Run after him while he's playing his kick scooter near Cik Man's shop. Oh my. Is that really you Hanim? Gosh! While at work just now, Selvam was saying.. "Wah! U look different nowadays. Abit childish." Huh! What was that supposed to mean? Im just having fun with kids,ok? I'm already an aunt to 7 nephews n 2 nieces. Wah-piang! Only 21 yrs old, but having so many of the niece-neps! *Blm termasok anak2 angkat aku lagi! RAMAI DOK!* Kwang3... N believe it or not, im starting to love kids.

I used to hate kids easp toddlers. They can really be such a nuisance. BUT... BELIEVE IT OR NOT (AGAIN!), i'm teaching pre-sch children. Hahaha. Reminisced how Murni used to say... "Geram nye aku! Kan aku ikat budak ni, swing dia laju2 baru tau!" Hehehe...

And, now i ran away from Yan! Hehe.. Sibuk ajak main game computer, fight2! Actually its fun, tapi nari nak rest. Penat uh...Takde mood lagi.

Hey, i badly wanna go Night Safari (Halloween). But, someone sabotaged me. Asking directly to Cik Man... "Cik Man, anim sibuk nak gi tgk halloween. Dosa tak n apa hukum nya?" Kwang ajakkkk!!!! Hmpph! Im not celebrating, i just wanna see seh! Huh!

K lah... gtg now. Toodles!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-10-26T05:58:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Currently im at Teban. Just chilling out with Ain's family. Was at her plc last night. Went to catch a movie with Yan n his dad n me and Ain. High School Musical 3 was coooolll! Hahaha. Guess i was abit too tired, so i took a short nap. Kekeke!

Thursday night was the night where another secret was revealed. Hati siapa yg tak terperanjat dan sedih? But i just had to accept the fact. Kan Allah beri kita ujian setimpal dgn ape yg umatnya bole terima. Jadi skrg ni, aku tabah dgn apa jua dugaan yg diberiNya. If this is my fate, i'll accept it. I've got to love myself, n love the ppl around me. *No worries dear, i'm alright. Thanks for the truth and the whole truth.*

Then, on Fri i went to Hougang stadium to watch a live football match. The team which i support was playing against Hady's team. Yes! It's Hady Mirza! Though its just a friendly match, but still, the way they played was abit rough. The supporters who were with me were like... "Alah Hady, sudahlah! Tak leh main bola...boleh nyanyi je!" BUT...after the match,those who actually kutuk Hady, then, took pics with him. Hmmph!!

Anyway, yesterday's match - Manchester Utd vs Everton - nice one! Fletcher managed to score 1 for Man U. And of course, i'm glad. Well, its just the starting of the season. Though they come in 5th position, i bet, they can go to 1st also. We'll see... :)))

Ok then! Toodles~!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-10-18T02:56:00.000-07:00

Salam Alaik.

My body is aching all over. What a week! Damn hectic. Had to run here n there today. My ezlink was spent $8 just for today. Believe it or not?! First destination of the day... Madr Al-Irsyad. Then to my aunt's plc @ Gombak(Congrats to cuzzie Suzanna on her engagement to de Eurasian guy, Christopher...Semoga kekal ke alam perkahwinan n ke anak cucu..Amin!). Then went to Gombak YGR awhile to collect my time-card. To Bangkit(Masjid Al-Iman) and at last! Here i am @ Jurong West! Hahaha! (Lutut longgar seh!) So now, im currently waiting for Abg Simmons to come back from work. *Ada Saturday Nite Fever date* Woohoo!! ;)

Anyway de kids at de mosque were awesome! They had a good time. With me, of course! :))) There were 10 of them. One word to describe them. AWESOME!

But those @ Irsyad also isn't that bad. Love that chubby boy.... Ahmad Naufal Hafizzuddin. :) *Kemontelanmu mencuit hati.*

Anyway, its been 3eeks since my ass got to sit on Mr. Spiderman's bike. Haahahaha! Ouh...how i miss TZR. *Kwang3! Aku kangen gitu loh,kapan kita pacaran lagi? Heee...*

Oh ya! I finished celebrating Hari Raya ok. So people, if u see me outside, don't assume i'm still in my Hari Raya mood whereas i don't. I'm wearing my jubah/baju kurung coz i've classes at holy places. :)

And last but not least. Aku rindu sama Md. Syazwan!!! *Kapan kita ketemu lagi? Hopefully he'd be able to go ro the zoo with me next mth. I'm waiting k, sayang?! :)

Ok lah, gtg now. I'm still waiy=ting for Mr. Simmons. *Lambat btol uh!*

Toodles!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-10-16T04:43:00.000-07:00

Hello babes n dudes! I'm back again. =)

Currently @ de library. Waiting for 'Mr ala-ala businessman'. Gonna watch a movie. Maybe. He's late today, unlike last wk.

Anyway, last week's jln raya wif the EV mates were boring. I dunno y, something's missing there. *sigh* Wished it was a great outing. Maybe Taj wasn't there,i guess.

Oh well, i gtg. Update some other time then. Tata.

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-10-08T02:46:00.000-07:00

Damn! i didn't realize that the fare for the bus/mrt has gone up till yesterday! *Melampau!!* Gave us GST money, and then other prices hike...like the electricity bill! *Like shit!!*

Anyway, last Sat i had a beautiful date with a so-called 'ala-ala businessman' gitu. Smart giler!! Hahax. *Kembang seh...tapi aku mmg kembang pun!* ;p Went out ard 7pm, he fetched me and we went to Orchard Cineleisure n catch a movie. Big Stan was hilarious! 4 out of 5 stars i'd give. The movie is abit dirty, talked abt gays. Hehehe.. Oh well, our date didn't end there. After the movies, i went home due to some circumstances which couldn't be avoided. *Ceh! Speaking London sak!* Later that night, he called to make another so-called date the next day. :))) Met him at Jurong East mrt on Sunday morning...as early as 8.30am n we had our scrumptious Macdonalds' breakfast at Jurong East Entertainment. Then our journey began... Went to Parkway Parade... Then to Tampines Mall... Just to window-shop and to look up for someone's birthday prezy. N got one at Tamp.. After our long hours of window-shopping, got hungry.. AND here comes the best part! We went to Seoul Garden! Fuuyooo! :)))) That was abt 3pm,n after eating, we catched the movie - My Bestfriend's Girl. A nice one also.. But.. Kinda dirrty! Actually not kinda...but really dirrty. Heee.... Went home almost to 11pm. Phew! A 1-day outing.. I love it!

Its like 3 days straight i watched movies, ok?! On monday after work, went to watch Senario the Movie : Episode One. "Bos tau smlm kwn saya naik jet ski sampai mana?".....Bos asked, "Sampai mana?" ... Azlee replied, "Sampai rosak!!!" Hahaha... "Apa persamaan kau dgn dugong?" ......... "Dua-dua tak boleh terbang!"

Anyway, someone's getting married next yr. Hopefully this time round it'll last, though i don't know u, i just wish u all the best. But i hope u won't disturb other ppl's life any more. U've got what u want, so don't be selfish. Let others have their life too....

And my Mr. Spiderman motor rosak seh.. Dlm bengkel da seminggu sih. Khabarnya, dari TZR..udah di transform jadi TZM. Waduh...kelasss gitu! Pasti sayang kamu happy bangat ya... Tapi, kasian sih sama kamu... Mahal bangat harganya. Pelan-pelan kayuh deh.. Ngapain harus sedih-sedih, taksi byk sih, panggil aja pak supir! ;p

N to Mr. ala-ala businessman, i'm always free to watch movies with u. Hehehe... Feel free to ask me out on a date, ok?!

Selamat Hari Raya semua! N to or Ashikah, Happy Belated Birthday. And to all the Oct birthday peeps..- Md. Tajjlee (12 Oct) , Md. Sabri (14 Oct) n Siti Aimi (17 Oct)... Happy Advanced Birthday dearies! C u all in our Raya 08 Outing.. Tata!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-09-29T04:35:00.000-07:00

Salam Alaik!

Wah...today will be de last day of the fasting mth, tmrw nite..all muslim's will be celebrating Aidilfitri! But.... i just don't feel that so excited nor am i happy. Its all due to her. Its kinda shoking to know from bibik what she n her husband are planning to do. Imagine....ur own family member has his/her own strategy to make the parents hate you for nothing.. N i really mean NOTHING! Im sad, how she really change. And im actually talking abt my eldest sis. :( I swear, i'll never seek forgiveness from my bro-in-law. NEVER! And,my sis? Hmmm.. it depends, but im trying to run away from them. Exactly! Its gonna be Hari Raya, and she's making me do this. Dad...I'm sorry, but i really am hurt with what u said. The way u twist n turn ur story...she studied from u.

No matter what.... Mom noes best, n i love her to bits n pieces.

Oh well, im at Kak Eni's plc now. Great big feast! Hahaha... Baru trun 2 kg, agak2 skg da naik 4 kg. Heeee.....Anw ppl...duit GST dah kluar tao! :))))

Ok then, im gonna do my very last min shopping later at geylang. Yiipppii~! Confirm crowded!

To all my frenz.. Selamat Menyambut Aidilfitri, salah dan silap harap dimaafkan. C u all ex-EV loves next wk..12th Oct! Muacks!

Get Hari Raya Graphics Here

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-09-20T00:42:00.000-07:00

Salam Alaik!

What a day for me. Im so damn tired.

Before i start with my story, i'd like to seek a thousand n one apologies to my ex-EV mates' for not attending the gath yesterday nite..due to some very personal matter. Its kinda sad, i was feeling half-hearted, as i had promised my gerls, but, at the same time, i had to go. Sorry again girls. I wish we have another reunion...perhaps just us..the girls. Hmmm.. Well, enough said. I cant possibly feel regret. Its fate... God has decide what's gonna happen. To my bebots' again...im truly sorry.. :(

And im damn tired, couldn't get enough sleep becoz of what happened to her yesterday nite. Qada' dan qadar.. Believe in it. And my tooth still hurts, n i couldn't get enough sleep.

But..... Somehow.....

I still did feel excited (just a lil' bit) :))) becoz....just now was my first day teaching in ONE of the six arabic schools' in S'pore. Tak sangka gitu loh... ;) Oh well rezeki on Ramadhan! The kids were awesome! I loike~.... The bulat-bulat boy (Naufal).. The hensem one (Amirul).. The stylo-milo name (Sandrinova)... The sweetie-pie (Aliah)... Gosh~! So much names to be remembered. 20 students in the class. Though i was tired, still..i can't wait for next wk!

Oh boy....... 2hrs more to break fast. Been thinking of Ayam Penyet since last wk. Kekeke.... Siow! K lah..gtg now! Tata..

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-09-12T23:06:00.000-07:00

Slmt berpuasa to all Muslims firstly.. :)

Its already the 13th Sept n also the 13th Ramadan.. 17 days more to go. Pay day was yesterday. Tolak sana sini belen brape jek! Huhu.. Still haven't bought my baju kurung n shoes. Maybe tonite im going geylang.. But c how my condition is first. Oh yar.. Im on 2 days MC, its all becoz of my 'duno-wats-wrong-wif-my-cheek-yg-tembam-sblh-kanan-je'. Its damn painful. Had to feed myself wif painkiller je. *Sob sob*

Nvm bout health.. Actually, im just kinda hurt how ppl just dont bother abt how they treat my friendship. She used to be de quiet type, dunno y now that drastic changed in her happen. Salah campur lah tu..! But now im not gonna gif a damn abt it anymore. Biarlah...ape nak jadi dgn kau, aku dah tak kuasa. Asal kau bahgia da lah, nak.....

Anw, nxt Fri there'll be a 'break-fast gathering' nxt wk on the 19th Sept wif the ex-EVs'! Woohoo~! I seriously cant wait for it. Happening gitu lor...

Psstt! Have u heard abt the gossip.. Datuk K has married someone else! Gosh~!!! Ehem! Bulan puasa nim....stop it ehk! Allahualam...

Ok dehh.. Slmt berbuka to u all later.. Tata! :))

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-09-06T03:45:00.000-07:00

Sungguh membingitkan!! Sungguh membosankan!!

Benci lah, tak keje pun step keje! Menyampah! Now is 6.50pm already. Janji mengalahkan org india!

Hmmmpphh! Menggugat keimanan btol, lagi2 tgh bulan puasa nie.

Anyway, i got a bouquet of flowers from Lekha. My 3rd flower gift of the yr! But it still doesn't cheer me up. I'm just so utterly upset. Janji nak gi jalan2 bazar geylang. Tapi tgk lah, dah wat time! Terang2, tak buka luar. Sorang ajelah nampak2 nye aku disini.

Anyway, u dont have to explain to me abt 'customer gini gitu...' im so sick of those stories. Just do whatever u wanna do ok.

Cinta-Kenapa-Aku!?!?!?!?!?!?

(kes tgh marah ah nie!)

2008-08-30T01:17:00.000-07:00

Happy advanced Teachers' Day -Ms Hanim!!! Hehehe....

I'm in school currently. Doing nothing, other than updating my blog. Hee.. :p n im sooo happy coz i got a cushion-type flower from Irfan! I'm sooo touched. My 2nd flower of the year! Haha.. Thanks so much dearie... :)) N....someone's jealous! Kwang3... ;p

Oh yes,not forgetting Dani n Ratna..thx for the wishes!

Im currently on the msn with my good-old-time neighbourhood fren! Hehe.. Funny lah this girl! How i miss the times when we go ngaji together.. play masak2 outside.. play cikgu n student.. Hahaha! Miss u la mak nenek!!

K lah,gtg now... Y's otw,we're going geylang satu family! Nak tgk Farel...from Cinta Fitri. Eeeyuw! Aku tak minta sgt dongs! Haha.. Daaaa.....~

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-08-27T03:33:00.000-07:00

I miss my parents...especially my mum!

But luckily they're coming hm tmrw,terubat juge rindu.. i feel like i'm being emotionally abused by someone, so i guess, i need my mum ard!

Haiz... I cant stand her anymore. I don't understand what's her problem,seriously! She don't give a damn abt my feelings. I've been hurt over n over again.. No feeling n sense of sympathy. She's so inhuman!!! I hate her!!! And if i can't stand her, i wonder how the ppl around her,reacts?! Does she treats everyone the same? Urrghh!!!

I would strongly agree if 'b.y' wants to go to MOM. 'B.y' should really teach her a lesson! I pray hard a miracle would happen!!

Hmmmm.........

Oh well, Ramadhan's just ard the corner.. :)) Woohoo! Geylang Serai... Here i come.. Haha! My ayam perciks..n my dendengs... Yum-yum~! *eye-rolls* ehehehe....

Ok ppl..gtg! Guess i'll be seeing Wanlater! Missing him loads!! Tata...

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-08-22T03:06:00.000-07:00

I'm blardy bored. In school now, just updating my blog and catch up with some bulletins at Friendster. Its raining now, would be great if i could have a short nap, but... aku ni penakut, jadi paham2lah.. :p

Just now got an sms from de admin side, classes will resume tmr. WTH?! The fasting mth is just round the corner. Huh! So i represented the rest n told the teacher-in-charge to postpone the class first. Tmr, there's fireworks!! Haha.. I wanna watch, but there's also OT with my current job. Dusshhh!! I'll be dead tired!

Mom n dad will be going back hm tonite.. Boringnye aku sorang2! Haiz..

N i'm starting to miss Wan already. :(
Oh boy~..

N this nose-block sux! I hate this! Damn....!!!!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-08-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

Boo! Heee....

Im in school now. Well, there's a mixture of feelings in me now.

First n foremost....im feeling...,so hungry! And i mean VERY! Im now with Irfan only. Nur is not here, got her msg saying tt she's not coming due to migraine. Hmm..

And just now, there's a new student, and i tell u.. Muke handsome siotttt!!! Name dier, ALIFF MATHYN. Fuh! Just by seeing the name, can u imagine how gorgeous he is?! And the funny thing, i was teaching him.. n said.. "Ok, so do u understand me or not?" He simply replied.. "Not!" Hahaha.. I even said to him like this... "Im going to get angry if you don't listen to me.." And he replied.. "I'm not." Hahaha... I said, "Of course not, ur just a student." And he gave a wide evil grin! Cute lars... Fair skin, with dimples. Ouwww!

Ok nim! Cut de crap.. :)

Anywaysss.... Cant wait to go for chalet in the evening later. Hehe.. Ratna commented.. "Wah teacher, u look pretty today." Kekeke.. Kembang mengharum jek! Actually nothing special, i didnt even put on my make-up. Just my eye-liner.. Or perhaps the dress, makes it different. Hahaha.. Thks for the compliment yar!

Oh well, i'm bored now. Another one more class coming up. Hiak-hiak-hiak!

Will update again some oter time then...

Adiosssss.......

'Cinta-kenapa-aku'

2008-08-13T02:09:00.000-07:00

I'm like...so bored now... Damn bored ok! I'm tired of waiting, and i'm tired of calling/sms-ing.. So,here i am in the libr, just to make sure that my time is being occupied.

Thinking of going to the movies, perhaps to Vivo. Like... "Wah!! Btol ke??" Haha... But i'm not sure if that someone is going to be on time. Hmmmphhh!!!

And anyway, i'm kind of excited for this Saturday's chalet. Tapi... Yg tak shiok nye, de guys from de other team is coming. Si bdk 'step handsome' tuh ade... Menyampah!! He's not supposed to come in the first plc rite, but somehow i think he's good friend, or might be Dany asks him to come along. Well, what to do. Just have to heck-care je lor...

Oh yar, in the bus to Jurong just now, Amin boarded the same bus with me. Hehehe.. He was asking where i'm currently working now. I just smiled and say.. "its confidential.." I can't reveal too much, coz... I just don't feel like it. Get it?!

Okay...I'm getting a little bit pissed off. So before i start to type any unpleasant things in my blog, i'd better stop.

Tata!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-08-08T03:36:00.000-07:00

Salam..

Currently in sch now. Kinda bored. Tomorrow's National Day.. Oh, Happy 43rd Birthday Singapore!!

Anyway, Cik Ju just called.. She is bringing him out to watch fireworks tonight. And like so suddenly i wanna cry. I feel upset,ok?! I missed him so much.. Think its like 4 days since i hugged him. :(

Lately,i really get so emotional easily. Kak Eni just called, she was asking me something quite personal. Well, thought maybe i can share abit. She was asking if i'm ready for marriage, and she has someone in mind.... AND... She's going to talk to mum about it. Hmm.. Am I gonna accept him if everyone agrees to it? I don't know. Its all up to me actually.

I'm blank. So totally blank and confused. I just wanna cry.. N cry.. N cry all my heart out.

Wan, i miss u so much.. I miss the times he would blocked me from going home. Miss the times when he hold my hands tightly. Urrghh.. I need to see him, soon.......

And Y... What's going to happen to me? I missed being pampered, really!

No one just seems to understand the pain i'm going thru. It hurts..so, so much. I can laugh like hell, but no one knows the truth.

S... If you're gonna be the one, i guessed, i just have to accept the fate. But really, im not ready for marriage if its really gonna be u.

Ya tuhan, berilah aku petunjukMu.

And the saying really suits me..... Love...Y Me?

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

'PURNAMA MERINDU'

Bermaknakah tiap baris kata-kata

Ataukah hanya dibibir saja

Bersungguhkah rindu yang engkau pamirkan

Ataukah sekadar lakonan

Rindu... telah melekat dalam hatiku

Walau awan lalu rinduku tak berubah arah

Purnama mengambang cuma berteman

Bintang berkelipan dan juga awan

Siapa tahu rindu yang mencengkam di hatiku

Aku meminta pada yang ada

Aku merindu pada yang kasih

Aku merayu padamu yang sudi merindu ku

Purnama mengambang berbagai warna

Bila embun pun datang bintang purnama

Sendirian bertemankan malam sepi

Aku meminta pada yang ada

Aku merindu pada yang kasih

Aku merayu padamu yang sudi merinduku

Hiaskanlah cinta di jari manisku

Sinarkan bagai gemerlap kencana

Tandakanlah kasih dimercu kalbu

Serikanlah purnama yang merindu

2008-07-28T03:08:00.000-07:00

:))

I'm like smiling almost everyday. Even bibik says.. "Kamu everyday happy,ya?" Haha.. Well, maybe its because of the whole truth. It should have happened a long time ago (mcm zaman jepun plak!)..

N guessed what?! Something very nice happened on last Sat (26/07/08)!

I got a bouquet of roses.. Setelah sekian lama tak dpt bunga, bila dpt..... Fuh! The feeling is enexplainable. :p N when i got back home, mum was like.. "Bunga tuh utk Haidar ke? Kan nari bday dia.." Ouh... PUHLEEEEZZZZ!!!! Oh, anyway.. Happy 15th Bday to u dude! Da besau panjang kakak aku peh ex laki peh anak.. Kwang3..

Hmm... K lah, gtg! Si bacin ni nak MSN dgn matae-lup dier...

Tata!

2008-07-18T18:15:00.000-07:00

18th July 2008

A new day has come. :))

I promise to be a better me. I don't care what happened in the past. I live for now, today, tmrw, n my future..

N i hate the name ma-lek! Emm.. How abt ma-lup? Haha..

Cinta-Kenapa-Aku

2008-06-28T03:48:00.000-07:00

Good day peepz!

At home now, nothing to do. Blah blah blah...

Oh ya, i was back from Tania's wedding. Woohoo! De deco was superb! And de funny thing was tt, de bride can't sit still. Haha! Guess, she's not sure of the tradition. But...Wait a minute! I tot, every bride n groom should sit still?! Heeee..... Maybe she's still new to the religion n tradition. Kwang2.. But still, de mak andam shud tell her. Hmmm.... Gasak lah....

Anyway, i feel tertipu. N im very angry! Just what shud i do? Kak eni tells me to just cabot. But,im scared, they'll hunt me! Gggrrrrr...! DAMN!

N someone tgh merajok wif me...

Hurhurhur!!

Tata..

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-06-14T06:04:00.001-07:00

Im counting down the few hours left.. Haha! *Mcm aku yg nak kahwin!* Doink! Actually, i do feel abit nervous though. Lucky Siti sudi teman. =))

Anyway, my congrats to Hara & Ajai for ur wedding. Hope that it'll last till eternity, insya-Allah.

Oh yah, when's my turn? Khekhelala.. Marriage,anyone? Hahaha.. Mcm sale pulak! Kwang2.. No matter what, i leave it to fate. If ur the one, i accept as it is. But if ur not the one, i would still pray u'd be one.. *Oh Ronaldo! Bile kau nak masok Islam...* Hmmph! I'll wait,ok? *winks*

Anyway, congrats too, to Kak Eni! At last.. Hannah Junior is out. And this must be Kak Eni's best bday gift ever! I wish for something like this too.. :))

And, my last but not least, my congrats to Kamalia n Sali on their engagement tmrw! :) So,i'll be going for 2 functions tmrw. I seriously can't wait. Hehe.. Wonder how excited i'd be when comes to my turn! *Uwik!*

Oh well..got to go now. Wanna iron my jubah, my tudung, look for a nice handbag and have an early nite! Heee.... *Kan aku da kata, mcm aku yg nak kawin!* Tsk-tsk!!!

Toodles!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-06-07T11:06:00.000-07:00

Its 2am now, and i can hardly make myself go to sleep. Life is really getting tough, going through all the obstacles alone, i can really feel the weight on my shoulders.

Why do i have to go through this? Can someone just take away the pain n misery? I can no longer carry this burden alone. Deep down inside me, no one knows what i actually feel.

I need someone....

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-06-05T04:37:00.000-07:00

Chaak!

Today's Kak Yaya's 27th bday! Woohoo.. Masih muda lagi! Ahakz.. :)

Anyway,a few things happened today. My team went to Kings' Arcade to do ground check, and at around 11+, my team leader came to fetch us. And that's where the whole story starts! His BRAND NEW car went up the curb, and his side.. erm.. what should i call it.. ferring? Oh well, don't bother what's-the-name of-the-thing... it came off the side of the car, and lay on the side of the road, with scratches on it. Poor John! But the cool thing was, he was saying.. "Alah, no problem lah.. don't u all worry." Heee...

We dropped off at Holland V to have lunch, and then, Cik Man n me went to do blk survey at Commonwealth. Kwang3.. Cik Man got himself stuck with this man, kind of retarded. He was following Cik Man everywhere. Poor thing! Lucky it wasn't me. Hahah!

Finished work,we went our separate ways.. N i was so blur with that area. God knows how tired i was just now. Huh! Lucky ada Mr. Spiderman.. Heee... Went to have dinner at Newton Food Ctr, and then, this is one shiok story. We were talking at the traffic lite, when suddenly he shouted.. "Eiiii!!! *%*#@#$!!" There was this small girl who dashed across the road w/o her mum n bro. Think,she's only 4 or 5 yrs old. If i were the mom, i wouldn't know how to react! She was really playful!

And now, im at the libr with him watching that 'Raffles Building Ghost'. Very eerie.. I wouldn't wanna take the lift alone next time.

Anyway, i found my 2nd breeding yesterday, with the 1st time my name in the system. Haha! At last..n im glad! :))

Ppl,u should c this 'Shiok-Sendiri' video!! I cant stop laughing sia... This chubby boy, feeling2.. He was singing 'Siapa Yang Rampas Cintamu by Ukays'. U all should watch! Pasrah + Emosi seh..

2008-05-22T00:46:00.000-07:00

Oh dear..my head's gonna blow up anytime!

I ponder n i wonder..what if i had listened to my parents advice abt not taking up the classes? What if i had not signed the agreement? Things would be different then.

Hmm..no point regretting over it. But im just fed-up. No wonder people always say... "Melayu kalau da maju skit, mula lah sombong!" I do agree on the saying actually. 'Aku tak susahkan n tak kacau periuk nasi org, tapi org kacau periuk nasi aku.' N true enuff wat he and my colleagues all say. We can't just keep quiet n let ppl say n do whatever they like. They hurt us.. So? We should fight back. As in, we have our rights to voice out also. U can hurt us, so i want u to feel how i feel also.

Then, there's cluster at my workplc. N there'll be OT for these 3 wks. But it seems like i won't be able to serve the government for this wk due to some circumstances. Given an option, i would rather work with the govt, gd benefits- time off and double pay.

*Sigh*..............

Well, let's put all that aside.

I got something nice to share with u all. =))) Wanna noe what it is?

*Drumrolls*....

MANCHESTER UNITED WON THE CHAMPIONS LEAGUE!!!

Huhuhu! I loike! And i've got nothing better to do, i counted - 5 ppl were wearing the MAN U jersey today. N nil for Chelsea. Kwang2! And yesterday, i went out with 'this pengampu' - Man U fan but he wore the Chelsea jersey. He pissed me off! I was telling him, "Confirm Man U win this title!" And he was like.. "Chelsea! Chelsea!" Moron..

If ppl were to look at him, u'd be confused so as to see his Chelsea jersey, with the Man U keychain. And the pillion's helmet - *ehem2!* has a Man U sticker! ;))

N now, i got nothing better to do. Its reading time. Erm...buku ape tuh?! *winks* WORLD'S GREATEST SOCCER PLAYER. ;)

Toodles!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-05-19T23:34:00.000-07:00

What a tiring day! The weather is so humid, and sweating im heavily. The road at CRW is sooooo looonnggg! Fuh!

And the pain at my calves and heels are not really stable yet. Huhuhu! The doctor said if the pain won't go away, i've to come back for INJECTION!

Anyway, an important msg to my fellow friends.. If u guys saw my ex-bf, pls don't tell me or inform me abt what u see. Coz i can't be bothered actually. Really!

Oh ppl! My friendster pics has been uploaded. The photo's were taken at YGR. :) View..n don't forget to comment!

2008-05-15T02:22:00.000-07:00

I got 2 DAYS MC. Woohoo!

But..its not 'holiday' for me..

Gotta refrain myself from too much walking. Damn! My heels, my calves,my ankle.. Urgh! In pain.. Damn pain..

Cinta-Kenapa-Aku

2008-05-02T23:12:00.000-07:00

I got to go for an Anger Management course! Ehmm...is there one? I almost blowed my top over this little girl. Uffh! Sungguh the kesian. But, can't be blamed also rite... 'The Japan' flag is rising'. Kwang2.

And sungguh the kesian for me, coz i had to handle everything on my own. Had to do one-man-show. Trainer cum recep. Kesian kan?? Haha.. And now is already 4.30pm, and i still haven't had anything. Its coming to dinner. Waduh2.. Sungguh the kesian again! And then, i got to rush to Aljunied for my night classes. Ouh.. Sungguh the busy.. Huhuhu...

AND last but not least...

I am also SUNGGUH THE BORING coz i won't get to watch Man U's match tonite at 7.45pm!!! *Sigh*

Just hope that they'll win the last two matches for this season. Gd luck sayangs'! Hohoho!!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-04-30T04:03:00.000-07:00

Finally.....

No more worries.. The feeling of anxiety is gone at last.

'Oooh...My troubles seems so farrr awayyyyy...' Woohoo!! ;)

Now i know why its said that.. 'Dosa mengumpat itu lebih besar dari berzina.'

So now, i don't wanna think abt it anymore. But if it really is so true..then, that will be the later part. I don't want it to affect the joyous days ahead..

:))))

N people.. Don't forget to smile!

2008-04-27T21:59:00.000-07:00

If i had one wish now, i would badly wish for happiness.

I want my family to be together, like how we use to have gatherings on weekends. I miss having the gatherings! Really.. After my late sis passed away, things changed abruptly.

Kakak - as always. (not to be mentioned)

Kak Eni - Busy with studies at UM.

Kak Yaya - Busy with family. (I think so)

*Sigh*

Apart from my family,I yearn for love by someone who is sincere. Not a deceitful relationship. I've endured alot till i think i can't take the tension anymore, to whom can i turn to?

Can u hear the weeps of a broken-hearted girl? Do u know how much pain n misery i've been through?

Now, all i have got to say is.......... I leave it to God's fate.

Kita hanya merancang.. Tuhan yg menentukan..

Let the journey begin.. NOW..

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-04-22T00:28:00.000-07:00

I hate it when i update my blog in the libr! Damn.. Its so lembap, and my tagboard won't appear! Toopid!

Today is such a boring day!

I failed my BTT.. AGAIN! I give up!

Here comes the bad mood, so i msg-ed my sir, asked for leave. Lucky he said ok, if not, i can't imagine myself travelling from Ubi CDC to Eunos Mrt and alight at Woodlands Mrt, then, to work. Piang! What a long journey.. but, i actually have nothing to worry, coz my spiderman is here. But, its just that, the laziness in me won't let me go to work. Tsk tsk! Can't be blamed also right, i'm just in a no-mood-for-anything!

And my face, urrghh! Jerawat sana.. Jerawat sini.. Bingit! He offered 'help'.. Saying that "Sandpaper would be much of a help to clean all the pimples' and black spots'."

Somehow today, i miss my bestfriends.

Dayah msg-ed me this morning. And im so outdated. She's in RP. Woohoo!

And wiwi replied my comment at friendster. And im like.. Btol ke aku da sombong?! Ish,takdelah.. Ku bz je.. - in my heart.

Liza and Aimi - nowhere to be found. Oops! Heee....

And somehow.. I miss her - my late sis. Just kinda wonder, what's life gonna be if she's still around. Haiz.. I miss her..so much!!

Hmm.. *If he's here, he would be like.. "Da dtg ah tu dia peh emosi!" *

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-04-21T05:17:00.000-07:00

It's been a week since i start the new job. Kinda tiring at first, but come to think again, its cool! Haha. Very relaxing. =)) BUT.. Like i mention, there's always a but in my story.. Hee.. Oh ya, but.. u just have to tahan interacting with the public. As for myself, i havent got my warrant and authorisation pass. Got to wait at least a mth.

Today, i did roundings at Ghim Moh. Got lost and reached there quite late. Huhuhu! Lucky my manager wasn't there yet when i reached. Wasn't the star-karat,ok!?

Hmm.. I actually wanted to be attached at Yishun/Sembawang. But the manager sent me to Buona Vista instead. Just have to bear with the long journey. Lucky they didn't sent me to BP. Thank god!!!! *Phew!* ;p

And ppl, don't throw your cigaratte butts anywhere ok? Coz...i'll be monitoring YOU! Hahaha! Will be doing enforcement twice a mth. Cool,huh? ;))) Most prob, i'll be stationed at a shopping centre at the north area. Woohoo! Can't wait!

Anyway, just wanna share something funny. Hee.. I went out with a 'ghost', believe it or not! Haha. The 'ghost' was asking me.. "Kakek kamu mana?"... "Sedap santapan kamu?"... "Kamu jgn cuba2 hubungi sesiapa!"... Hee.. He got me scared. Giving me the creeps and goosebumps! He wasn't himself. The red and 'swollen-like' eyes. Eerrr.... I called his bro and mum. His mum insists that he rides back hm and just take a cab, but this 'ghost' is so degil!! And when he started the bike, i snatched the keys. And to my shocked, he actually wanted to swing his helmet on my head! *Keje gile!* Uffhh... I quickly ran for my life, and just then, he turned and walked off. Sungguh the peliks!

I walked up to him and recite the Ayatul-Kursi, and then he was back to normal. Huhuhu! And when i asked him what happened, he looked so blur.

And now to my surprise, when his parents asked him when he was already fine, he says "Hanim tgh emosi.. Byk masalah, sbb tu dia merepek!"

Huh! Sungguh the kwang ajaaak!

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

2008-04-19T22:42:00.000-07:00

At last, my tagboard is here! Hee..

Anyway,things really got so cocky these few days. I feel stressed and pressured. I just can't seem to trust guys. Huh! My past relationships' made me feel so insecured now. Did i just hurt someone's feelings? I don't know. I really don't. Was i being selfish and ego?

I thought, by going to the new 'home' yesterday could make forget my probs. But initially, the heart feels close to his. But.. Haiz! There's always a but in my story. *Sigh* What can i do to make myself have a little trust on that someone?

I guess, i just need time.

For now, i wanna start afresh.

Get it?

'Cinta-Kenapa-Aku'

Man U match

2008-04-14T00:05:00.000-07:00

Chaak!

I'm sooo happy! Why?

Guess lah..

Oit! Guess?!

Man U won the match against Arsenal last night! Woohoo~!

And the thing that shocked me was... Hargreaves scored! Khekhelala! ;)

Just my luck that my bro-in-law didnt subscribe football channel. Sia2 jadi jantan kalau tak tgk bola. Oops! ;p

And.. Like duh~.. My syg scored for the penalty kick.

And how was i being updated?

Through someone, of course. *Mcm ye2 nak tlg dub kan!*

Huhuhu! Anyway, i'm starting my official full-time job tomorrow. Just now was only the briefing. Hopefully, my fever would be gone by then. And i got posted at the Attap Valley. Wonder where it is. Hmmm....

Oh well, someone beside me just can't stop bothering me. Hmmph! *Dahlah tadi tayar pancit! Hehehe.. and the sound goes tet-tet-tet-tet-tet-tet-tet rite?!*

Kwang3.

'cinta-kenapa-aku'

2008-04-13T04:48:00.000-07:00

Helllooo...

My very first entry, by the original writer.. Huhuhu! <- da terikut2 ct seh! Hee.. I used to have a blog in blogger.com, but i just can't be bothered to update. ;p That was then. And now, here i am again, all becoz of ct. Huh! Oh well.. New blog, new life! :) I'm currently at Aljunied. And for the first time, we took a BUS for a LONG JOURNEY. Hehehe. Was out since morning. Took bus 30 from Jurong East and alighted at Geylang. Went to the hp shop, and then to Parkway. Wanted to have lunch at Banquet, but someone just can't negotiate with me. Ggrrr... He wanted to have something else. So we headed to the fastfood restaurant. And Parkway is a great place to find the four fastfoods! KFC, BK, LJS and Mc! All around.. ;) Couldn't decide what to really eat and, finally, he made the decision to eat at BK,coz his 'all-time-favourite-pie' is there. Y was like.. "Let's sit at the corner." And i'm like.. "NO! We have to be fair and square. You're not gentleman." Haha.. Then,we went out and went to KFC. It was a bit stuffy, the place was quite occupied and its hot,too. So, the fickle-minded us went out and sat down at LJS. "Bahang kan! Kau tak panas ke? Tak reti ar.." Kekeke.. I kind of guess what was going on actually.. 'Really? Da bingit kan! U've never tried LJS,that's y......' Kwang2.

Then, we window-shopped for awhile though i know he doesn't like it. Checked for movie timeslots, and at last we couldn't decide any nice movie to watch, so we proceeded to his favourite hangout place! 'Macha' and his syg were there, chit chatted for awhile, and here i am in the library alone, leaving the three stooges at that coffeeshop.

Oh ya, i'm abit nervous for tomorrow. ;) Will be meeting new people, new friends, and most importantly, NEW ENVIRONMENT! Heee... A totally different kind of work. I wonder how its like to work in this environment. Hopefully, everything goes well and smoothly, insya-Allah. Luckily my YGR Saturday schedule is not being disturbed. I still get to see and teach my favourite students! :))))
PS: Ct don't forget to 'cuci' gambar kite dua kalau ader k?! Hee.. Its really nice working together with u! Gonna miss the times where we have our 'feasts', 'momok-stories' and the 'hard-times-with-pests'! Hehe..

Well, gotta go now. Gotta rush back at the coffeeshop. Another bus ride for the both of us..the tragic LONG JOURNEY. Khekhelala.. *Rasakan! Selalu complain je kan, sekali-sekala naik kenderaan luar pun best. Kwang3!*

'cinta-kenapa-aku'

2008-04-11T22:01:00.000-07:00

hello.

this is my first entry.

but its not by the writer. its by me. siti!

heeeeee.